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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:01

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Would this be the day?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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He knew the spot.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

I think the readers, may guess!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why does my mom never wear underwear?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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I have no regrets .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Why do some people admire Latin American cultures but not want to be from or live in those countries?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Honestly! Do you people actually watch all that nonsense produced by the nitwit network television stations or do they just claim you do?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She wouldn,t have been !

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Who then, do I blame.?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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We were not on the streets..

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

When she asked me how she looked .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was seconnd youngest,

Was to survive, this bastard.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I said to her

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I couldn’t, believe it.

Im still living with it.

But, we were locked up after school.

Comes on , in middle age.

I waited trembling.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

This is soul school!.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was very sick at this time too.

We all went to grammer schools

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But ive been too sick for many years..

I don,t even have a pension.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

It was going to be , some day.

All the time i was locked up.

She loved him until the end.

So whats the point in blame.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She was in good health!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Ive learnt so much.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I could never make a relationship work though!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

My life is so biszare .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was scared of men, in general

She married twice! .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One cannot live in the past .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

So, i spoilt her more .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She found it foreign!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My family never makes their pension either.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Especially a lifetime of it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I write beautiful poetry .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I will be 64.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was 9 years of age.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And i lived it daily.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I never cut or harmed myself..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But it wasn’t much.

What did i know ?

Put me off passion for life!!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.